Cast My Burden on the Lord

This past weekend was the holy Passover and Passion weekend, during which I taught a Track 1 class on Psalm 139. I am grateful I grew stronger out of the preparation and teaching experience.

Since I told Pastor Dora on April 19 that I am suffering a minor depression, I have experienced healing power, in some mysterious ways. The breakthrough was the words from "Praying to the Names of God", page 38, as recorded in my blog 4/22/2011.

The message was reinforced during Sat accountability group. The sharing of hearts brought a sense of freedom, reduced my loneliness. I made commitment to serve Sat mission. I now understand that the way up is to seek first His kingdom and his righteousness. Also on 4/23 Sat, the title of my daily devotion is amazingly fitting: "The cure for depression", Psalm 43:5.


On 4/24 Sunday service, I received 3rd affirmation, when the message covered the verse 2 Cor. 4:17 that I prepared for Sunday school an hour later.

I believe my 4th affirmation is Psalm 51:12. Sins robbed me of the joy of salvation. Two items I will deal with:
1. I tend to have tiger head, snake tail.
2. I tend to develop the negative attitude based on imaginative fears.

On the caution side, I still feel a little bit anxiety in ~5am this morning. My inner world is not completely peaceful.

Today I received another affirmation, let's call it No. 5. Wisdom For Today:

"Peace comes when we turn those overwhelming issues over to God and cease trying to dictate the outcome. ... You will keep him in perfect peace, whose mind is stayed on You, because he trusts in You Isaiah 26:3. But if I am trying to maneuver a situation to gain the outcome I desire, I will have distress."


Circumstances are not the key, God cares much more to build up my relationship with Him, just like Summer 2008.