Road to recovery

Yeaterday still had a kittle bit 氣神衰

wallsit 30 seconds might help.

Sec drive seems to come back a little

Brothers love brought healing

Yesterday we openned house for 4SSpring brothers to gather at bbq dinner planning summer outtings.

For a few reasons, the party helpped me so that i overcame the evening brain numbness that I would like to call 經氣神衰.

1. Shuyi and I, with a little help from Taylor, put first floor and backyard of the house in order.

2. I accomplished list of things in prep of bbq. 

When small signs of 經氣神衰 surfased, i prayed hard to expel it mindfully.

3. From 6 to 9 i enjoyed friendly feelings in the presence of my group friends and brothers in Jesus.

4. Taylor and Tracy played with friends

5 i had good long sleep from 11pm to 9am the night before

 

 Will 經氣神衰 come back today?

Sigmoidoscopy and Losing My Cool

I had mental blockage and slowed thinking the day before when i accidentally slept early and skipped one bed time dose of Mirtazapine 15 mg. 

Last night i lost my cool when supervising   my son to learn Basic Trignometry. He said he is agitated by me that was why he did not pay attention to details. Lord please help me improve my relating to Taylor.

Problem is my heart being JUDGEMENTAL which stinks offensively to Taylor. Oh Lord please change me, a sinner, offending Your people. 

Yesterday morning at La Jolla Endocopy center with Dr Mayer, i went through a process that is rather painfull. Results came out clean. I have external hamoroid and internal hamoroid. Just need to stay away from constipation, and get colonoscopy 2017.

What is causing my problems below:  

1. 4 months with no sex desire since Feb

2. Speech impairement 

3. What seems a void in brain, mental slowdown especially late in the afternoon

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At this point docs and  I have ruled out these causes:

0. Low T or low D

1. Alteimers Disease

2. Colon 

3. Spine

4. Old Hip wounds

5. Thyroid

6. Diabetes

What is the root?

1. Mental illness defined by lack of certain brain neural agents

   - this explains why Mirtazapine 15 or 7.5 mg is helping so far.

2. Spiritual: Not Trusting God is bigger than my failures and my fear of them

 

Recent events since June 6

10 days ago June 6, i thought i would never walk again. In desperation I cried out for God to cure me.

Help He did. The injury turned to be groin injury. Through icing and sauna i recovered most of the pain.

前天晚上去歐陽幼文家吃飯与錢军和她家丶她妺錢？丶妺夫戴陸見面。

大家合影，書逸說我鄒紋滿脸。

I felt a bit headache and mental block. Slow thinking and strggling with words.

週末過得很好：去pB Bin fire, Poway Lake boating.

Yesterday ariund 6pm i had Slow thinking and strggling with words. Came home and slept from 8pm to 10:30 pm on sofa. Skipped rameron and slept in bed from 10:30 to 7am

Will i suffer worse mental blocks today due to skipping a dose of rameron?

Praise the Lord No bone damage but what about head numbness?

PTL, X-ray the day before yesterday proved no bone damage where i was suffering excruciating pain.

Hence i resumed normal walking and going about life. Puting on pants is painful but it could be groin abductor and adductor muscle injury that can heal in a week.  Apparently breast stroke kicks can cause groin injuries.

Another alert: head numbness which i felt again yesterday during dinner at New Dedhli place. Could it be caused by lack of Remeron?

God thank you so much for allowing me to walk normally.

你说過“都安排好了＂

Old injury comes back 6/4

I started to feel hip sour after Sunday racketball game. 

On Monday morning i went to the gym. The sour hip was not there. Tuesday was normal. Wed morning i swam 2300 feet, felt great in the morning. On Wed afternoon i started to feel sour hip again.

This morning i could not get up I feel so much pain. I took pain killer Dr Bortz gave me called Meloxicam. 

Friday morning i woke up better, drove cR to school for Tracy.

Did some work and devotion. Tried to take a bath but when i crunch down an excruciating pain felt throughlower left pelvis 

I think i need to go to emergncy.

Friday morning