Orlando 靈糧堂

約伯

三位朋友

Eliphaz 以利法

主在苦難中與我們同在

James 5:11 the Lord is full of compassion and is merciful. 

But God does not have to explain to us.

啓示錄21:4

主要擦去我們一切的眼淚

我有兩個選擇：

躲避痛苦錯失與主见面的機會

或直面痛苦在其中見到主

主日學 約書亞記10:23，25

個人的，家庭到群體

23 眾 人 就 這 樣 行 、 將 那 五 王 、 就 是 耶 路 撒 冷 王 、 希 伯 崙 王 、 耶 末 王 、 拉 吉 王 、 伊 磯 倫 王 、 從 洞 裡 帶 出 來 、 領 到 約 書 亞 面 前 。

約 書 亞 對 他 們 說 、 你 們 不 要 懼 怕 、 也 不 要 驚 惶 、 應 當 剛 強 壯 膽 ． 因 為 耶 和 華 必 這 樣 待 你 們 所 要 攻 打 的 一 切 仇 敵 。 -约书亚记 10:25

何為我的五王呢？

SMMU training, Linux smmu map flows, vipul etc Mark G etc Taylor etc

約書亞24

15 若 是 你 們 以 事 奉 耶 和 華 為 不 好 、 今 日 就 可 以 選 擇 所 要 事 奉 的 、 是 你 們 列 祖 在 大 河 那 邊 所 事 奉 的 神 呢 、 是 你 們 所 住 這 地 的 亞 摩 利 人 的 神 呢 。 至 於 我 、 和 我 家 、 我 們 必 定 事 奉 耶 和 華 。

為神建造合一見證的壇

Dec 25 '14 Orlando

I am at the Starbucks near Sea World.

Reading an interesting book: Healing gor Damaged Emotions by David Seamands.

I have suffered fear, anxiety and depression since March 2014.

Upon some reflection, i could trace back to:

1. Richard G event of 2013

2. Vipul's and Qazi personal attacks of this year

3. My failure to meet the expectations from Azzedine, Halter, Min Guo and Mark G

I need to talk to my loved ones.

Body aches Soul aches

這7、8天早上醒來就覺得下體發麻發痛，睡眠也不足。昨晚睡得不好，但早上還是跑步兩英里象前兩天一樣。

昨天下午頭痛，不知今天會痛嗎。

神應許，日子如何，力量也如何。

聽kara Tippets 的訪談令我感動，我好象在夢中大哭。

我能哭出來嗎？

A big step forward, a small step back

Yesterday I was very energetic feeling good throughout the day.


And then I stayed until 7:20pm at work, without dinner, that proved to cause dumb headache similar to what happened two weeks ago Sunday when I delayed lunch.


Just like that Sunday, coffee was involved in both cases.


I am still a sick patient. God please heal me.

Possible turn around unexpected solutions

Last Friday i was in deep trouble and deprssed. 

I went to Bortz office he recommended Clomid to me.

Tuesday 8/9 i completed abdominal CT scan it was clean: no cancer. My sickness is in my head and the chimicals, endocrine system.

Clomid is working: my energy is recovering today even after the harsh fearful words from  Azzedine yesterday.

Today i focuses on S2 apeture for 5 hours that helpped too.

Listened to a talk by rev Tim Keller on Discovering God in the midst of pain and sufferjngs.

My present suffering is result of previous 3 years of disordered life work and coworker approval became Priority No 1.

No wonder i suffer. The suffering may magnify my faults especially:

1. Recklessness 粗心

2. Coward 膽小

God j am in deep trouble please vhange my heart. 

Del Norte High School Homecoming Night

Principle  Greg Mizel spoke 

This year theme: two seas

Sea of Galilee:  every drop of water comes in, 

Dead Sea

Me first and me most is a dead mentality.

Happy life is one centered around others.

Marc Ziegler. Algebra 3

Trimester system

Conlon mJ pre SAT

Katie Thompson

  Is AVID trained

Kill a mockingbird

Sunday

Galatians 2:20

    I have been crucified with Christ and i no longer live, but Christ lives in me. The life i live in the body, i live by faith in the Son of God, who loved me and gave Himself for me.

1. I no longer live for myself. 

     Not think of yourself less, but think less of yourself. Rick Warren.

2. 

2 Tim 3:16 All scripture is God breathed and is useful for teaching, rebuking, connecting and training in righteouseness.

Carmel

Baal worshippers

Romans 3:   

   Application-general self-knowledge

Laws - 

   Romans 9: 

   Old testamont has 3 types of laws

       1. Civil laws

       2. Ceremonial law about sacrifice and temple

       3. Moral law

    Love God with all my heart soul strength and mind

    PMA salt lake city

Faith comes by hearing and hearing by the Word of God