Conversation with Tay and Tray about dying

Shuyi's grandfather passed away 8/8/13 at 96 year old in his home in Lexington, KY.

Tray understands the concept of death and human struggles: we talked in depth my depression my difficulties in accepting myself. This time, 8/10/13, we talked about Mingxi party, how i was nervous around a group of strangers. She empathized with me. I said i took the step to accept nervousness. Like Wreck it Ralph. I decided to not hide my clumsiness and my inferior complex.

Taylor and i discussed what he would say if it were my funeral. He said he miss me even as one would if a habitual annoyance suddenly departed, like sleeping next to snoring person for a longtime, you will miss that noise. I said i do not buy that but he has the right to model life that way.

He would that i left my mark because he will get a job due to my pushing him. Interesting. 

I asked him to protect mom on my behalf and tray.

"Your mom is special: honor her."

He nodded.