公義的審判

啓示錄20章11丶12節講 人必有一死，死後且有審判, 在上帝白色大寶座前的審判 死了的人無論大小貴賤都站在這大寶座前,憑生命冊所記載的，照他們所行的受審判。

耶穌認識他的朋友，對父神說把記在他們名下的不義算到我名下,這一下我們就順利通過審判

這些何不是為張鶴書阿姨預備的福音呢？

Reading Life of the Beloved

Reading Life of the Beloved in Gouverneur Hotel Montreal

I read the1993 book by Rev Henri Nouwen for spiritual living in a secular world.

He answered the search in my presentaton for Tainan Prison Mission on Self Acceptance. 

- You are my beloved, on you my favor rests. Matt 3:16 

You do not have to get caught in searches that lead only to entanglement. Neither do you have to become the victim of a manipulative world or get trapped in any kind of addiction. Page 38

求神的醫治

來4：16 所 以 我 們 只 管 坦 然 無 懼 的 、 來 到 施 恩 的 寶 座 前 、 為 要 得 憐 恤 、 蒙 恩 惠 作 隨 時 的 幫 助 。

在從桃園去台南的高鐵4號車廂0709次

今次特為短宣將要服務的戒毒所學員而求憐憫，求神的醫治給他們帶來轉變帶來希望。

為工作的困境禱告

Two Dilemmas:

1. Resolve conflict between two teams (one HW/System, one SW): pray for a alternative, Option 3 to emerge.  
2. Find a suitable 安全 solution for HB-Istari.

 Pray for me to:

1. Conduct meetings without quarrel, like AT.
1. 2 TIM 2:14 不 可 為 言 語 爭 辯 ； 這 是 沒 有 益 處 的 ， 只 能 敗 壞 聽 見 的 人 。
2. Treat people impartially, like AT. This is devotion on Nov 6. Especially given the conflict involving 3 stages of reactions.
• 1 Tim 5:21 I charge you, in the sight of God and Christ Jesus and the elect angels, to keep these instructions without partiality, and to do nothing out of favoritism.
• The 3 levels of conflicts from Brian Blancke: 
1. Intellectual: conflicts of ideas: he likes Option A vs she likes Option B.
2. Emotional conflict: 
1. He hates the color of Option B and she hates the color of Option A.
2. He hates the fact that the meeting went without him. Yet it is not a threat to his inner peace.  
3. Identify conflict: 
1. she perceives that her self image and self worth depend on the success of Option B; or:
2. She considers himself more worthy if she gets invited to the meeting that makes the decision A vs. B. If she was not invited, she felt less worthy.    
3. Cleanse bitterness inside me.
1. I felt violated by the comment: "you are too offensive ...; you just want to slip through by making the cons seem low."
4. 把我的内心平衡建在坚固磐石上　（today's devotion)

2 TIM 2:20 在 大 戶 人 家 ， 不 但 有 金 器 銀 器 ， 也 有 木 器 瓦 器 ； 有 作 為 貴 重 的 ， 有 作 為 卑 賤 的 。

21 人 若 自 潔 ， 脫 離 卑 賤 的 事 ， 就 必 作 貴 重 的 器 皿 ， 成 為 聖 潔 ， 合 乎 主 用 ， 預 備 行 各 樣 的 善 事 。

22 你 要 逃 避 少 年 的 私 慾 ， 同 那 清 心 禱 告 主 的 人 追 求 公 義 、 信 德 、 仁 愛 、 和 平 。

23 惟 有 那 愚 拙 無 學 問 的 辯 論 ， 總 要 棄 絕 ， 因 為 知 道 這 等 事 是 起 爭 競 的 。

24 然 而 主 的 僕 人 不 可 爭 競 ， 只 要 溫 溫 和 和 的 待 眾 人 ， 善 於 教 導 ， 存 心 忍 耐 ，

25 用 溫 柔 勸 戒 那 抵 擋 的 人 ； 或 者 神 給 他 們 悔 改 的 心 ， 可 以 明 白 真 道 ，

26 叫 他 們 這 已 經 被 魔 鬼 任 意 擄 去 的 ， 可 以 醒 悟 ， 脫 離 他 的 網 羅 。

Sail San Diego with People at Work

1. Eric Zhihong Qin
2. Mike Price
3. Dave Park
4. Jeff McLean
5. Himanshu Joshi
6. Yanru Li
7. Azzedine Touzni
8. Igor Malamant
9. Tom Zeng - one of the boats was brucezen so the next boat might be tomzen my name sake almost.
10. Morteza Ziaei

遂宁盐市街

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老照片：100年前的盐市街

  这张1917年由美国传教士拍摄的遂宁盐市街的照片，反映出那时遂宁的繁荣和盐市街经营的盛况。照片中不是现在的新盐市街，而是朝阳街分叉出直至涪江边五圣祠码头的城东老盐市街，这条街直到遂宁建市之初才拆除。抗战后，四川成为沦陷区人避难的场地，遂宁人口剧增，盐市已经迁址新盐市街，就是现在新盐市街小学的地址。
H* s1 _# p1 l$ p 遂宁盛产盐巴。笔者在文革期间，就看到过遂宁县拦江、白马以及原蓬溪县大英乡（现卓筒井镇）农民家里用大锅熬制锅巴盐的状况。著名的罗都复庄园主人罗都复曾经在拦江当制盐学徒，后来靠制盐发迹，据史料称，民国时期，川北多布有卓筒进，仅大英就拥有108灶1711进，年产量达4000余吨。至今，还有“大顺灶”等18眼井保存着。罗都复不仅把盐运至遂宁盐市街销售，还在成都盐市口设销售点售卖。: u9 r4 P3 R0 n2 z a1 z- ]: D
此外，清末明初，作家巴金高祖李文熙，号介庵，先随伯祖李秋门离原籍浙江嘉兴到北京，得交当时名士张船山等人，后来又被山西一个姓马的官员所聘，当了十多年的家庭教习。马氏子弟应试及第后，李文熙也因此受到回报，被姓马的保荐，捐了个前程，在1818年当幕僚入川。李介庵当过射洪青提渡盐场大使等职，后才定居成都。盐场大使一职与距离70里的涪江下游遂宁盐市街的繁荣有着一定的联系。（西德尼. 戴维. 甘博 摄影 长巾 文）
盐市街

　　遂宁的盐市街有两条，一条名老盐市街，一条名叫新盐市街。自清代以来，遂宁制盐工业发达，特别是拦江、白马以及蓬溪县河边镇、蓬莱镇等地的地下盐水储藏量大，盐井特别多，为了寻找市场，遂宁城是个理想的销售地，于是，盐商们选择了遂宁城东门外原来朝阳街东南的一条小街专门售盐巴，这条街就改名为盐市街。

　　当时，盐商中的罗都复盐业生产特别好，不仅在遂宁盐市街设立店铺销售，而且将盐巴销往成都的盐市口，业务做得很大。

　　后来由于城市建设的发展，以及遂宁人口的增多，作为人们每天必须的食盐用量大了，老盐市街已经不能适应市场需求，盐商们便迁移到城北现今城区医院北侧盐市街小学那条街上销售盐巴，人们习惯称呼这条街为新盐市街，老盐市街也失去了售盐的历史。现在这条街已经拆除，旧址就在朝阳社区。

為ARCH REVIEW禱告

今天中午我領軍AC and VMM arch review.

Please give me the choice words, God.

Pray for the whole team especially AT and SH, BD and MG SM to excel in the large engineering effort.

Pray for Allan and KY that they find blessings in what they do.

Pray for wisdom in me to manage the 2.5 hours like a faithful stewart 

Give me the wisdom to field questions with love and understanding, 

大邑县新源劳改煤矿

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Repost an Old Diary 1/27/2007 Seven Steps to Heal Damaged Emothings

Since childhood I have an enemy named "Tender Spots".

It has been more than a year since he attached me. But he strikes back in

the openning weeks of 2007.

D. Briggs taught the effective 7 steps of fighting tender spots. Use it, and

the transcending power of creative imagination, I shall overcome. Because I

have some winning experience in this battle field.

1.        Accept the current setback.
1. Accept the bad feelings. I failed miserably, shamefully on Jan 11's speech "ABCs of R&D Project Management". I accumulated even more debt when I broke my own rules (by checking in a bad pssim change). I felt ashamed by Shawn's insult.
2. How could I be so reckless at the Toastermasters?
3. How could I be so greedy to check in little changes two hours after Jignesh sent out the email to stop checking in?
4. How could I be late to Gary's performance review preparation meeting? How more stupid could I possibly be?
2. Fully embrace my unique feelings. Yes, even bad ones.
1. I can't believe I easily gave away my Toastmaster achievements of 2006. I ought know better about rehearsals. I ought know better "first things first". Rather than "getting involved with 1.2.1 merge", I should have spent the day on HL for MoB?
2.  How more stupid could I be! How useless! How \em stubborn! How weak! How short-of-discipline! How childish! How immature! How imprisoned I am by work! How imprisoned I am by guilt!
3. How could I aimlessly spent time to catch up work yet ignoring Shuyi, Tracy, Taylor and Dad, let alone friends! Let alone church, let alone cell group to which I am the lead.
3. Draw the link between current over-reaction-feelings with childhood traumas.
1. Dad came on Dec 26, 2006. He has lots of "debts" (in the moral sense as discussed in chapter 2 of the book, Healing for Damaged Emotions by David A. Seamands).
2. He and mom used guilt-trips to bring up me and Ling.
3. My childhood had a great deal of emotional damages.
4. Recall the past events. Recall as many details as I can. Relive it. Embrace it.
1. Name one: my mistake to overturn the portable propane stove.
2. I was verbaly abused at age of 8. I kneeled on washing board. My cry for mercy and help was ignored with dad's stone-walled face.
3. He had no emotional capacity to feel what I felt. I got no tender love from my earthly father.
5. Let the pain be felt as if it happens today.
1. It was bad. Very painful. To have no tender love from dad.
2. I longed for his love. I got nothing from dad.
3. I felt so cold when he was around.
4. He sighed all the time. He laid in bed, sighing. He was totaly occupied with his own emotional pain.
5. There was hardly any emotional interaction, other than cold spells from him.
6. I much rather spent time at other's homes. I can't believe that I had no desire to be home. My desire was for emotional closeness.
7. I desired for intimacy. I didn't get any. I was rejected. I was dejected.
8. Ni Zhe Ge Chu Shen! Nie Zhang! Chu Sheng! Mei Yong De Dong Xi. SHen Ni, NI Shi Lai Yao Wo Meng De Ming De! Wo Shang Bei ZI Zhou Liao Shen Mo Ye Wo! GO kill yourself!
9. I felt so unfair! I hated him!
6. Change the script so as to forgive him. How could I ?
1. I supposed he could have told me his dad: never spent much time with his dad. Grandpa was always doing business out of town or in Communist's jail.
2. His childhood was tradgic. Worse than a tragedy. It was a night mare.
3. He asked for my understanding. He told me that mom was a God sent to lift up us. He loves me.
4. He wanted to pay back his debt. He learnt how to cook to express his remorse. He did chores for Ling. He is doing chores for me.
5. He told me that he can't express his love to me in words. So he does it in actions. Amen!Praise the Lord. Thank you dad!
7. Go out to have some recreations. Keep in mind such over-reactive-feelings may re-occur!

Late last night, I began to wonder: why dad had no emotional capacity to feel what I felt?

 

1. I thought about his dad, my grandpa. Grandpa spent from 1951 to 1976 in Chinese Gulag, in a coal mine 四川省大邑县新源劳改煤矿 (现新源监狱）. Dad was devasted and deprived of fatherly love himself.
1. Worse, he witnessed grandpa's mock execution. That scared dad to death at age of 9. Talking about emotinal damage!
2. The above thoughts about my dear grandpa, whom I saw twice only when I was 9, warmed my heart in that fateful night. I no longer felt dejected. I know there were good reasons for my emotional starvations in my childhood.
3. Praise the Lord. I overcame my bitterness for my emotional starvations in my childhood.
4. But, what are the purposes of my current emotional struggles at work? My feelings of anxiety due to too many things to complete, my feeling of not being respected, my feelings of, occasionaly, panic?
5. I believe the purposes are:
1. to teach me self-control;
2. to teach me how to persever;
3. to teach me to be still and wait on the Lord to right my wrongs.

 

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宜珙铁路修了五年，终于在1970年4月份，全线通车。我们是祭祀的猪羊，任人宰割，权力者早已安排了我们的命运。
一大队的就业人员，调往四川省大邑县新源劳改煤矿。五月份的一天，我们又被武裝公安兵押上了焖罐车厢。真幽默，自己修的铁路，首通便是乘坐这头班车被武裝押送！
我们被押送到成都火车北站，十四年前由重庆劳教转运站押往眉山沙石大队时的旧景重現。
凌晨，大坝已停满了数十辆解放牌大卡车，解放军、公安兵、民兵、造反派武裝，全付武装，荷枪实弹，将我们围了个水泄不通。当道处还架设了重機关枪，對着我们。省公安厅、温江公安处、大邑县公安局的警车、摩托，密密麻麻列成一条长龍。
快速将我们押上大卡车，摩托十幾辆前行开路，卡车在中间，后有警车架着重機枪。警笛长鳴，浩浩荡荡，沿着温江公路驶去。人行道上，圍观者人头攒动，发表议论：这些人是七类分子押到山里面去挖煤炭的”。
有极左者大声呼喊：“打倒牛鬼蛇神！”
就业人員按捺不住怒火，大声以粗话回骂：“老子是日你妈、日你女、日你姐儿妹子！才不是去挖煤炭的！”居高临下，将唾液向下面路人吐去。群众投掷石子，我们将饅头向他们砸去。相互骂声不绝。前车驶过，后车接着对骂，並将吃剩的干粮掷在路人脸上。我们哈哈大笑！车速很快，那些“左派群众”把我们无可奈何。
下午4时左右，到达大邑县新源煤矿。海拨一千多米。我们一千多名就业人员，分发到３个大队（3个井区）。我们38中队，被分到一大队，又打散，将人員分到各採煤中队，由他们老手帶新手下井作业。
新源煤矿全部是刑满就业人员，多数人是５0年代便被判刑，送崇庆县萬家山劳改煤矿,刑满便转到新源煤矿。这新源煤矿已有３0幾年历史。解放前也是劳改场所。我们由“四一五”调来的人，呼他们为老犯人。住宿是砖木结构，有食堂（兼礼堂）。
井口到驻地是有三千多级石梯组成，进井到採煤工作区，要走10几里路。繁重劳动，极其危險。第一天下井，便因冒頂埋死一名新手。井下隨时发生事故，受伤是家常便飯。二大队瓦斯爆炸，幸好是星期日，死了五名检修人員。
工作有定额，完成后才能出井。有管班，老就业人员担任，有大、小班长（所谓靠拢政府的就业人員）。公安队长換班下井巡查，各个管理环節絲絲入扣。公安中有留用解放前夕在这矿管犯人的警察。每日工作要10幾个小时完成。遇着硬口，挖不动，要幾天幾夜才出得了井。我就曾两日两夜才出井，进井时自帶的干粮（玉米饃），在井下便硬如石头，无水干嚥下。
历来称呼煤矿工为“煤黑子”、“黑鬼”，埋了没有死，兩片石头夾片肉，不知死在那一天？
另有民办小煤窑，瓦斯爆炸，死＋一人。我们前去观看，惨不忍睹。
他们的今天便是我们的明天

Today's story to share with My Favorite

2 cor 5 is this my goal: to be found acceptable in Christ?

9 所 以 無 論 是 住 在 身 內 、 離 開 身 外 、 我 們 立 了 志 向 、 要 得 主 的 喜 悅 。

14 For the love of Christ constraineth us; because we thus judge, that if one died for all, then were all dead:
15 並 且 他 替 眾 人 死 、 是 叫 那 些 活 著 的 人 、 不 再 為 自 己 活 、 乃 為 替 他 們 死 而 復 活 的 主 活 。		15 And that he died for all, that they which live should not henceforth live unto themselves, but unto him which died for them, and rose again.
16 所 以 我 們 從 今 以 後 、 不 憑 著 外 貌 〔 原 文 作 內 體 本 節 同 〕 認 人 了 ． 雖 然 憑 著 外 貌 認 過 基 督 、 如 今 卻 不 再 這 樣 認 他 了 。		16 Wherefore henceforth know we no man after the flesh: yea, though we have known Christ after the flesh, yet now henceforth know we him no more.
17 若 有 人 在 基 督 裡 、 他 就 是 新 造 的 人 ． 舊 事 已 過 、 都 變 成 新 的 了 。		17 Therefore if any man be in Christ,he is a new creature: old things are passed away; behold, all things are become new.
18 一 切 都 是 出 於 　 神 、 他 藉 著 基 督 使 我 們 與 他 和 好 、 又 將 勸 人 與 他 和 好 的 職 分 賜 給 我 們 ．		18 And all thingsare of God, who hath reconciled us to himself by Jesus Christ, and hath given to us the ministry of reconciliation;

Fatherhood Wisdom vs Godly Sorrow

I lashed out because of frustration at work and at disorganized kitchen on Shuyi and Taylor two days ago. Smashed oven door and a pot of water.

Yelled at Taylor for his attitude of accusations. I dug oiut the tradh to prove that i did not throw away his food.

2 Corin  618 我 要 作 你 們 的 父 、 你 們 要 作 我 的 兒 女 。 』 這 是 全 能 的 主 說 的 。

Needless to say i repent in frontnof Shuyi and Taylor.

2 Cor 7 

9 Now I rejoice, not that ye were made sorry, but that ye sorrowed to repentance: for ye were made sorry after a godly manner, that ye might receive damage by us in nothing.
10 因 為 依 著 　 神 的 意 思 憂 愁 、 就 生 出 沒 有 後 悔 的 懊 悔 來 、 以 致 得 救 ． 但 世 俗 的 憂 愁 、 是 叫 人 死 。		10 For godly sorrow worketh repentance to salvation not to be repented of: but the sorrow of the world worketh death.
11 你 看 、 你 們 依 著 　 神 的 意 思 憂 愁 、 從 此 就 生 出 何 等 的 慇 懃 、 自 訴 、 自 恨 、 恐 懼 、 想 念 、 熱 心 、 責 罰 ． 〔 或 作 自 責 〕 在 這 一 切 事 上 你 們 都 表 明 自 己 是 潔 淨 的 。		11 For behold this selfsame thing, that ye sorrowed after a godly sort, what carefulness it wrought in you, yea,what clearing of yourselves, yea,what indignation, yea, what fear, yea,what vehement desire, yea, whatzeal, yea, whatrevenge! In allthings ye have approved yourselves to be clear in this matter.

The Call

From reading of the Recovery Version 1 Corin 10:6, now tjose OT things occur as examples to us that we should not be ones who lust after evil things even as they also lusted.

The calling to OT people was to enter and enjoy the promised land.

The goal of nt calling is to enter into possession of our good land, Christ, Phil 3:12-14. Enjoy His riches for the kingdom of God that we may be his expression in the present age. To participate in the fullest enjoyment of Christ in the Kingdom. Age Matt 25:21.

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The murmuring Num 16:41 of the Israelites typified the negative speaking of the present generation. The perished by the destroyr.

Atonement

My old sin ravaged my inner world, sin of omission and transgression on YouTube using others.

How I struggle: the bad I did not want to do, I did. This body lead me to old leaven.

This verse from 1 Coronthians 5:7 was speaking to my dilemma last night. 

No doubt he is watching me, using morning devotion to warn me against the old leaven.

Profession Dilemma: Is working with partial knowledge acceptable?

Post based on the sharing on 9/11. Sorrento Valley Fellowship Professional Dilemma Series V:

Profession Dilemma: Is working with partial knowledge acceptable?

What is knowledge?

Knowledge is a “justified true belief”.

i.                     Empirical knowledge: knowledge belief true based on an experience or perception.

ii.                   Analytical knowledge: knowledge based on reasoning.

iii.                  Value-judgment knowledge: you believe something is true basing yourself on moral and ethical values.

iv.                 Spiritual knowledge: you believe something is true basing yourself on personal encounters with things in the Spiritual realm, such as your convictions of the authenticity of the Scriptures.

  

   Question: In the professional setting, what kind of knowledge is relevant?

What is partial knowledge?

Some examples:

i.                     Empirical knowledge becomes insufficient when given a forward looking project.       

ii.                   Analytical knowledge becomes insufficient when you are tasked to construct the analytical model for a new SOC consisting of billions of gates.

iii.                  Ethical knowledge becomes fuzzy when a behavior is motivated by conflicting goals.

iv.                 As humans, our spiritual knowledge is by definition incomplete while this side of heaven.

1 Corinthians 13:12 (The Message) has a vivid description: We don't yet see things clearly. We're squinting in a fog, peering through a mist. But it won't be long before the weather clears and the sun shines bright! We'll see it all then, see it all as clearly as God sees us, knowing him directly just as he knows us!

How do people behave given partial knowledge?

i.             Too gullible: blindly charge ahead, unaware of the risk.

ii.            Too doubtful: overly cautious, unable to decide until partial knowledge becomes full knowledge.

iii.           Just right: navigate wisely in partial knowledge environment.

How to navigate wisely in a partial knowledge work place?

Consult:

無 智 謀 ， 民 就 敗 落 ； 謀 士 多 ， 人 便 安 居 。(箴言 11:14)

Leave the result confidently to God: 雅 各 書4:13-15

¹³ 嗐 ！你 們 有話 說 ：「 今 天明 天 我們 要 往某 城 裡去 ， 在那 裡 住一 年 ，做 買 賣得 利 。」

¹⁴ 其實 明 天 如 何 ， 你 們 還 不 知 道 。 你 們 的 生 命 是 甚 麼 呢 ？ 你 們 原 來 是 一 片 雲 霧 ， 出 現 少 時 就 不 見 了 。

¹⁵ 你們 只 當 說 ： 「 主 若 願 意 ， 我 們 就 可 以 活 著 ， 也 可 以 做 這 事 ， 或 做 那 事 。 」

 Include others in the process to make decisions with partial knowledge work place.

以弗所书 4:16. 全 身 都 靠 他 聯 絡 得 合 式 ， 百 節 各 按 各 職 ， 照 著 各 體 的 功 用 彼 此 相 助 ， 便 叫 身 體 漸 漸 增 長 ， 在 愛 中 建 立 自 己 。

Manage uncertainty. Be mentally prepared if things do go your way.

以 斯 帖 記4:16: ¹⁶ 「 你 當 去 招 聚 書 珊 城 所 有 的 猶 大 人 ， 為 我 禁 食 三 晝 三 夜 ， 不 吃 不 喝 ； 我 和 我 的 宮 女 也 要 這 樣 禁 食 。 然 後 我 違 例 進 去 見 王 ， 我 若 死 就 死 吧 ！ 」

Believe nothing can separate you from the love of God.

羅 8:38 因為我深信無論是死、是生，是天使、是掌權的，是有能的，是現在的事、是將來的事，羅 8:39 是高處的、是低處的，是別的受造之物，都不能叫我們與 神的愛隔絕；這愛是在我們的主基督耶穌裡的。

希伯来书 11:6人非有信就不能得神的喜悅，因為到神面前來的人必須信有神，且信他賞賜那尋求他的人。

George made improve over the CLIMB principles:

Consult God first.

Let wise men be your advisors.

Include others in the process of navigating the web of partial information.

Manage uncertain outcome.

Believe nothing can separate you from the love of God.